Confessions of an Empathetic Teenager

I feel like I'm losing the majority of my friends. I want to be there for them and be friends with them. But the drama.

Oh the drama.

I'm trying to move on with my life and away from that. But some of them... there's just so much going on and they've changed. To the point where it's like I don't know them anymore. Have you ever woken up one day and suddenly wondered why you were so close to someone? Sadly enough I have.

I feel like a jerk for saying this. But it's true. And some of my relationships with friends. It's like all give and no take. Relationships are built on give and take. If the scale isn't equal... then something's wrong.

I don't know. Maybe I'm just selfish. But when you're empathetic and the only emotion you feel is a bad one, shouldn't you want a break?

I just wish I could hug them and say, "I know all this bad stuff has happened and is happening and more probably will come, but we can't let that get us down. You need to face life with hope and thoughts of a better future. If you try hard enough, it will come. You've just got to believe."

But I can't. Maybe I'm just not a good friend. Other people have always been better at cheering others up than I have. I just don't really understand what they're going through I suppose.

Now I sound depressed. Bleh... I need to get on a lighter note.

So... on a lighter note... I've been working out. It's going pretty well I believe. And Otakon is this summer. I'm going with my mom.

It should be fun.

Right... well I better head off of here. I need to write an essay for French and work on an Earth Day project. So I'm a little busy.

Till I blog again.